Monday, May 28, 2012

This world of ours...

So, here I am (blog post number two by the way.. say what?). I am sitting at my empty desk, in my empty room, in my relatively empty house, on the recognizably empty Greenville College campus. I am just sitting here thinking, reflecting, and avoiding any of the packing I have left to do (I really hate packing. a lot). I leave for Ecuador in 11 hours for those of you who care, that is if there are even any people who actually read this thing. I am so very elated that I am going to be a part of this trip. For those of you who do not know already (again assuming people actually read this bad boy) I am going to Ecuador for two weeks to teach at a school. I will be teaching math to 6th-8th graders. I will also be a part of a group doing a vacation bible school for the students as well. It is in a poor community where the students are very fortunate to even have the chance to go to school. I am more excited to just love on the kids. I like math and I think it will be great to teach, but honestly I just want to see smiles and hear laughter. I think, honestly, thats what I love most about working with kids. laughter. Its so beautiful, so pure. Laughter in general is the most amazing thing in the world to me. I honestly think its how God speaks to me the most. I mean why wouldn't he choose something of pure joy to convey messages to me right? Anyways I am uber excited about Ecuador and cannot wait to take off tomorrow.

Today is also another big event though. Today marks the day that I have been forced to say and will be forced to say goodbye to some of the people I love the most. I didn't really put a lot of thought into how much saying goodbye was going to hurt. But it really has. I know goodbyes are only real goodbyes if you allow for it, but that doesn't mean that I am not sad. A lot of people I spend a majority of my time with are going in different directions and I am unsure of when I may see them next. And, yes, that scares me. I have shared so much laughter with these people, and like I said my heart doesn't take laughter lightly, I have also shared a lot of my life with them and they know me better than a lot of other people. I don't know I feel like Aristotle had it right when he said friendship was like one soul in two bodies. That would explain the feeling you get when people you have nurtured relationships leave. Its like part of your soul is being torn away from you and goes away. It would also explain why it feels so good when they come back because your soul begins to mend the tear that has occured. It makes sense right? I mean it does to me, but I think abnormally for the most part. I don't know. Its hard not to be sad, but I am trying. I am also super excited for all of these people though. Its hard for me to not be happy for them. They are extremely talented individuals. For the people who knock our generation for being lazy and unproductive, I say you may be right about some of the people from our generation, but clearly you missed studying my friends, because if you had you couldn't help, but have a little bit of hope for humanity. Yes, they are that amazing. I just want to go through and recognize a few of them:

Scotty- You are truly a blessing in disguise. Honestly I tend to not befriend people whom I feel are too much like me. And when I first met you, I convinced myself I didn't want to give you a chance. Well God didn't allow that to happen, and for good reason. I have become a better person because I have had you to help shape me. So thank you. Those kids in Saint Chuck have no clue what they are in for. They get the world's best reading teacher in the whole world. I love you Scotty.

Megs- Wow, what can I say. You are such an amazing woman. You have more heart than anyone I know. You have so much potential it scares me. I hope you see how amazing you are because the whole world sure does. I have said it once and I will say it again and again and again, if I had to choose a wife right now you'd be my first choice. Please. Please. Do something amazing Megs, do NOT be afraid to take a chance. EVER. You have to much to give to this world to not. I love you.

Xavier- Oh man. Well I was going to give you my dead baby for graduation, but he is at home. I know we have had some rough times where we just wanted to kill each other. Or rather I wanted to kill you. But I am so glad to see you ending this year so strong and really coming together as a person. A person I even kind of sort of maybe look up to. Seriously though keep fighting buddy. I know life is a struggle sometimes and really kinda shitty. BUT you have something to give. So fight. Love ya man.

Ems- ;) of course I would start with a wink. Em you are so beautiful. And I don't know how it came together that I would be able to come over to talk to Megs and her not be there and feel completely comfortable just sitting with you and talking to you instead, but I am so blessed that it did. You are such a great person. And I know you are going to miss Greenville, but there is a lot in store for you. Please go to Azusa after this year off. You just have to. I love you.

Matt- Bro, you have been a great SRC. I am really glad you got me to be an RC its changed my life. I think one of the things I am going to miss most next year is just chilling with you eating Taco Bell. Seriously, whether it was track talk, life talk, talking about girls, or just joking about people who may or may not be aliens I always enjoyed myself. You're a pretty awesome dude and I think you'll be the most successful person I have ever been friends with, it you let it happen. Honestly. Love ya dude.

Coree- My twin. I know you're not graduated, but you are supposedly leaving, so in case you aren't really coming back. You are strong. Stronger than a lot of people. I don't know where that strength comes from or how you get through what you get through, but if you apply that strength to nursing next year you will be the best nurse in the world. We've been there for each other through the rough and the best even before I came to school here really. I have appreciated your friendship since I have been here more than any other. I don't know what I will do next year without you. Hopefully make it to nationals on behalf of both of us. I love you twin.

Alex- Roomie. Ah, so I hate to say it but you will do awesome in the army if thats what you end up doing. Man you have been the best roommate a guy could ever ask for even if our room was NEVER clean. You listen to me vent more than anyone else does and you just sit and listen. Probably used to it huh? Smelly talks a lot. Either way though you're super selfless. And that is an uncommon trait to come across in someone today. kids are gonna love you as a teacher. Keep up the great work bud. Love ya.

To all of my other friends who are leaving me, I love you and you all are so amazing. CHANGE THIS WORLD!

As for me, I hope and pray that I can be as amazing as all of these people one day. I hope that I have and can change the world just like all of you. AND that is why I am excited to leave tomorrow. Yet another chance to change myself and hopefully a piece of the world. Thats all I got folks. Enjoy. God Bless.

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