Monday, June 4, 2012

Amor, Esparanza, y Yuyani

So, here I am sitting at a desk in Quito, Ecuador after a days worth of teaching math and playing with some of the most beautiful children I have ever met! Its hard not to see God here. Whether it has been through a hug from Argenis (mi nino favorito¨.), the smiles on the market peoples´ faces, experiencing the ecuator, or the friends I am making while being here. He. Is. Everywhere! It is so amazing. Here are just a few of my favorite things thus far¡ I know you should never pick favorites as a camp counselor, as a teacher, etc. BUT.. I always tend to pick a few favorites. That does NOT mean I do not love all of the children becuase I can honestly say there is not one of those kids who does not have a place in my heart. With that being said my ¨favorites¨ so far have been, Argenis who is a 2nd grader who hugs me as much as he possibly can. He is so great. Today he said ¨Josh es mio¨ it was pretty stinking adorable. Then there is Jesus who is a nine year old 5th grader! He is probably the cutest kid here in Quito. The other night he came with us to get hamburguesas, and he sat with me. The whole way there we were in a guerra con los taxis! (we were in a war with the taxis). The the entire bus ride was spent shooting when taxis drove by, and let me tell you, there are a lot of taxis here in Quito. I think my favorite part was when we would throw las bombas (bombs of course) and count down their explosion. After the explosion occurred he would look at me and say esta bien amigo (are you okay friend) it was a blast, no pun intended. I have also had a great time with Danny, Matteo, Alexander, Belen, Julacy (who I swear hates me). The kids are just so cute, sweet, loving, and Godly. Its awesome. I hope they are getting as much from me as I am from them. Because I am getting A LOT. I also love that I got the chance to visit el mercado (the market). I got the chance to buy some pretty awesome stuff. Thats not really what I loved though. I loved seeing the smiles on people´s faces as I walked through. The merchants were smiling everytime they attempted to sell you their items, for the right price of course. I just loved it. I know that a lot of the people there are poorer people, but they were not poor in joy that is for sure. I also got the opportunity to barder for the first time EVER. That was quite the experience. I did a lot better than I had expected to do. I bardered down quite a few prices, but I felt bad doing it most of the time so I only did it a few times. So, I didn´t get as much stuff as I wanted, but the people seemed happy so I was too. I loved seeing God at the market it was beautiful. We went to the ecuator yesterday, and that was an impressive sight and interesting as well. It was such a pretty place to be! There was art, nature, native casas (houses) and all kinds of people. It was one of the most beautiful sights I have seen, right up there with the Smoky Mountains. While we were there we had the opportunity to see how BIG God truly is. Listen to this. We stood exactly where the ecuator lies. We had a tub full of water and pulled the plug. The water came straight out. It didn´t spin in any direction what so ever. We then moved it to the northern hemisphere and drained the tub and the water spun counter clockwise and then in the southern hemisphere clock wise. These spots were literally 15 feet from one another yet the effect of the hemispheres were strongly evident. AMAZING. It also effected your strength, balance, and wieght! WHAT. It is so hard to not belive there is a God when you see things like that. ALSO on the topic of God being big my plane ride was an amazing first plane ride. Again seeing the Earth from so high up its just so difficult to not think God is real and that He controls SO MUCH. The team I am working with is the BEST. They really know how to love. I feel like we have all been friends for years. And it has only been a few days if that says anything about how big their hearts are. It helps make working all day and coming home to their laughter that much better. I don´t really know how to describe them, but there have been so many surprises on how great and how funny some people are. I love being proved wrong about how I think people are. I feel like its a joke God plays on me. Its like he is saying yea I will show you what that person´s heart really looks like and then when I see it and see that I was completely wrong He gets a good chuckle. I love it. Like I said so far this place is amazing. I love being a part of this team. I pray Lord that I am making a difference with Your help. I know You are making a difference in me and I thank you so MUCH for that. You are truly amazing and I thank you for all of the many blessing I have recieved. I pray that all of you see how amazing God is through my experience as well. Hope you enjoyed hearing a little about Ecudor. Much Love.

Monday, May 28, 2012

This world of ours...

So, here I am (blog post number two by the way.. say what?). I am sitting at my empty desk, in my empty room, in my relatively empty house, on the recognizably empty Greenville College campus. I am just sitting here thinking, reflecting, and avoiding any of the packing I have left to do (I really hate packing. a lot). I leave for Ecuador in 11 hours for those of you who care, that is if there are even any people who actually read this thing. I am so very elated that I am going to be a part of this trip. For those of you who do not know already (again assuming people actually read this bad boy) I am going to Ecuador for two weeks to teach at a school. I will be teaching math to 6th-8th graders. I will also be a part of a group doing a vacation bible school for the students as well. It is in a poor community where the students are very fortunate to even have the chance to go to school. I am more excited to just love on the kids. I like math and I think it will be great to teach, but honestly I just want to see smiles and hear laughter. I think, honestly, thats what I love most about working with kids. laughter. Its so beautiful, so pure. Laughter in general is the most amazing thing in the world to me. I honestly think its how God speaks to me the most. I mean why wouldn't he choose something of pure joy to convey messages to me right? Anyways I am uber excited about Ecuador and cannot wait to take off tomorrow.

Today is also another big event though. Today marks the day that I have been forced to say and will be forced to say goodbye to some of the people I love the most. I didn't really put a lot of thought into how much saying goodbye was going to hurt. But it really has. I know goodbyes are only real goodbyes if you allow for it, but that doesn't mean that I am not sad. A lot of people I spend a majority of my time with are going in different directions and I am unsure of when I may see them next. And, yes, that scares me. I have shared so much laughter with these people, and like I said my heart doesn't take laughter lightly, I have also shared a lot of my life with them and they know me better than a lot of other people. I don't know I feel like Aristotle had it right when he said friendship was like one soul in two bodies. That would explain the feeling you get when people you have nurtured relationships leave. Its like part of your soul is being torn away from you and goes away. It would also explain why it feels so good when they come back because your soul begins to mend the tear that has occured. It makes sense right? I mean it does to me, but I think abnormally for the most part. I don't know. Its hard not to be sad, but I am trying. I am also super excited for all of these people though. Its hard for me to not be happy for them. They are extremely talented individuals. For the people who knock our generation for being lazy and unproductive, I say you may be right about some of the people from our generation, but clearly you missed studying my friends, because if you had you couldn't help, but have a little bit of hope for humanity. Yes, they are that amazing. I just want to go through and recognize a few of them:

Scotty- You are truly a blessing in disguise. Honestly I tend to not befriend people whom I feel are too much like me. And when I first met you, I convinced myself I didn't want to give you a chance. Well God didn't allow that to happen, and for good reason. I have become a better person because I have had you to help shape me. So thank you. Those kids in Saint Chuck have no clue what they are in for. They get the world's best reading teacher in the whole world. I love you Scotty.

Megs- Wow, what can I say. You are such an amazing woman. You have more heart than anyone I know. You have so much potential it scares me. I hope you see how amazing you are because the whole world sure does. I have said it once and I will say it again and again and again, if I had to choose a wife right now you'd be my first choice. Please. Please. Do something amazing Megs, do NOT be afraid to take a chance. EVER. You have to much to give to this world to not. I love you.

Xavier- Oh man. Well I was going to give you my dead baby for graduation, but he is at home. I know we have had some rough times where we just wanted to kill each other. Or rather I wanted to kill you. But I am so glad to see you ending this year so strong and really coming together as a person. A person I even kind of sort of maybe look up to. Seriously though keep fighting buddy. I know life is a struggle sometimes and really kinda shitty. BUT you have something to give. So fight. Love ya man.

Ems- ;) of course I would start with a wink. Em you are so beautiful. And I don't know how it came together that I would be able to come over to talk to Megs and her not be there and feel completely comfortable just sitting with you and talking to you instead, but I am so blessed that it did. You are such a great person. And I know you are going to miss Greenville, but there is a lot in store for you. Please go to Azusa after this year off. You just have to. I love you.

Matt- Bro, you have been a great SRC. I am really glad you got me to be an RC its changed my life. I think one of the things I am going to miss most next year is just chilling with you eating Taco Bell. Seriously, whether it was track talk, life talk, talking about girls, or just joking about people who may or may not be aliens I always enjoyed myself. You're a pretty awesome dude and I think you'll be the most successful person I have ever been friends with, it you let it happen. Honestly. Love ya dude.

Coree- My twin. I know you're not graduated, but you are supposedly leaving, so in case you aren't really coming back. You are strong. Stronger than a lot of people. I don't know where that strength comes from or how you get through what you get through, but if you apply that strength to nursing next year you will be the best nurse in the world. We've been there for each other through the rough and the best even before I came to school here really. I have appreciated your friendship since I have been here more than any other. I don't know what I will do next year without you. Hopefully make it to nationals on behalf of both of us. I love you twin.

Alex- Roomie. Ah, so I hate to say it but you will do awesome in the army if thats what you end up doing. Man you have been the best roommate a guy could ever ask for even if our room was NEVER clean. You listen to me vent more than anyone else does and you just sit and listen. Probably used to it huh? Smelly talks a lot. Either way though you're super selfless. And that is an uncommon trait to come across in someone today. kids are gonna love you as a teacher. Keep up the great work bud. Love ya.

To all of my other friends who are leaving me, I love you and you all are so amazing. CHANGE THIS WORLD!

As for me, I hope and pray that I can be as amazing as all of these people one day. I hope that I have and can change the world just like all of you. AND that is why I am excited to leave tomorrow. Yet another chance to change myself and hopefully a piece of the world. Thats all I got folks. Enjoy. God Bless.

Sunday, April 29, 2012

So. Much! But I think I love it..

Okay so here is the deal. I am NOT a blogger. This isn't what I do and I probably am not very good at it. I tend to try to blog and then when I get to the end of what I have to say I feel great and I say well that was nice and delete it. I just don't tend to see a reason to post what I have written, because in my head I wrote it for myself and if I feel good after writing it well.. mission accomplished. Right? So essentially what I am saying is, I you all don't ever get to see this blog I'm sorry, but not really because I probably feel good about it anyway.

Here's the deal though. I have about a million things going on right now. Honestly I shouldn't even be typing this blog I should be reading an article on an experiment done to see if sad music affects your mood without cues. BUT I am also determined to get this whole blogging successfully thing accomplished as well so here we are. Like I was saying though, millions of things going on. As of right now I have less than a month of school left. I am sitting pretty on straight A's which I am happy with, but also terrified about because I can't get a B... and what happens if I do? (I am pretty convinced the world will stop turning... seriously). I am kind of a perfectionist about a lot of things so this whole straight A thing is important to me. So I have that. I am also finishing my first year of being an RA. Exciting I know. But in all honesty I have loved every minute of it this year (well not every minute of it but that's how the saying goes right?). Its been great to minister to people in a different way and that's what being an RA has been this year. On top of finishing my first year of being an RA I am transitioning into my new job for next year as the Vice President of Campus Organizations. I will be in charge of all the different organizations around campus making sure they budget right and make the campus a happier place to live! Its going to be great and I am super excited for it. It will be great and super stressful especially since its already creating stress in my life. I am trying to look past the stress though because honestly I love being involved and this is a great way to be. Next item, Ecuador!! Okay I am so very excited for this trip. I get to spend two weeks loving on some amazing kids. I don't know any better way to spend a part of my summer. Honestly.. Its been a real pain in the butt getting the money for the trip though. You would be amazed how few people actually care enough about missions to help send people. Its really kind of sad. With that being said I am almost at the amount I need to go and God has truly provided for me. Its pretty beautiful to see Him at work. Those are some of the big things going on right now. On top of all of that I have: A poster (like a legit experimental poster) due, my honors thesis, the GRE, Psi Chi, Applications, move out day, graduation, summer planning, and so much else going on. It is a busy month. Like I said.

I didn't mention Track yet.. because I wanted to give it its own section. I officially have three meets left until my senior and final season.. Its so crazy. I know track is a part of the business, but I love it so much that most of the time I don't even notice. The other night I was thinking about how people's eyes look when they are doing something they love. They tend to become more colorful and brighter when they talk about or do what they love. Its amazing really because you can really see it happen. I thought about what I love to do. I love missions, kids, and running. I have been told that when I talk about missions and helping people my eyes light up and there is a smile on my face that no one can take away. When I play with kids I am nothing but smiles as well. When I run though.. Its different. I am normally in tons of pain. Especially when I race its like pain central. However, whats going on inside me is pure joy. So, I supposed if you look past the pain on my face and look deep into my eyes while I am racing you will probably see a bright blue that could light the world. I just love it so much right now.

So I mentioned I was stressed. BUT please don't get me wrong. I love this life I am living. Its so exciting. Every one of these stress providers is making me stronger and preparing me. And to me thats so exciting to know. Lord I don't know what my plans are, excuse me YOUR plans. But I am so very excited with what You have presented thus far and I plan to take advantage of what I have been given and grow and love and live for you. So thanks. I am busy beyond belief and I LOVE it.